The Joy of Judge Not
There is only so much judgement a person can take!
Chalk it up to teenage arrogance, but until I went to college I was nearly impervious to judgement. How I miss that feeling, don't you?
Am I the only woman who walks around in fear that someone will notice my child's too long fingernails? Or that my kids ran an aisle ahead of me at Target and are not in my vision? As we all know, mother's just can't win. We're either too strict or too coddling; too free-range or too hovering. And if you think that's hard, homeschooling moms may get it worse.
Over the course of the last decade I have become more and more concerned with what others think about me and allowing their judgments to rule my life, but a few weeks ago something traumatizing happened to me.
A fellow shopper shouted obscenities at me while my four children were present and told me I didn't deserve my children. I have never felt more irrationally and unfairly judged in my life. She almost broke me, but my will to survive has taken over. So here's my new mantra. Just in time for my 30th birthday: "F*** you."
As soon as I start getting a weird stare or somebody whispers something behind my back or has a nasty comment on a social media page. My response to them is, F*** You.
Konmari has brought me joy in my wardrobe, in my bookshelf and now in my curriculum (I'm on paper!). And now Konmari is bring me joy outside of my home. I'm removing the non-joy sparking crap from people and adding this new mantra. F*** You.
I'm not going to actually say my mantra to people. Like any mantra, this is for me. I have been full of anxiety about how people feel about my homeschooling, about not being Cholov Yisrael or Pas Yisrael anymore, about us considering a move back to Texas, about getting a dog, about just plain living our damn lives! I won't do it anymore. I'm not a judgemental person. I'm really, really not. I'll give anyone the benefit of the doubt and I like to assume that other's will afford me the same respect, but I can see now that they won't. So F*** you.
I will not let their judgement effect me anymore!
Chalk it up to teenage arrogance, but until I went to college I was nearly impervious to judgement. How I miss that feeling, don't you?
Am I the only woman who walks around in fear that someone will notice my child's too long fingernails? Or that my kids ran an aisle ahead of me at Target and are not in my vision? As we all know, mother's just can't win. We're either too strict or too coddling; too free-range or too hovering. And if you think that's hard, homeschooling moms may get it worse.
Over the course of the last decade I have become more and more concerned with what others think about me and allowing their judgments to rule my life, but a few weeks ago something traumatizing happened to me.
A fellow shopper shouted obscenities at me while my four children were present and told me I didn't deserve my children. I have never felt more irrationally and unfairly judged in my life. She almost broke me, but my will to survive has taken over. So here's my new mantra. Just in time for my 30th birthday: "F*** you."
As soon as I start getting a weird stare or somebody whispers something behind my back or has a nasty comment on a social media page. My response to them is, F*** You.
Konmari has brought me joy in my wardrobe, in my bookshelf and now in my curriculum (I'm on paper!). And now Konmari is bring me joy outside of my home. I'm removing the non-joy sparking crap from people and adding this new mantra. F*** You.
I'm not going to actually say my mantra to people. Like any mantra, this is for me. I have been full of anxiety about how people feel about my homeschooling, about not being Cholov Yisrael or Pas Yisrael anymore, about us considering a move back to Texas, about getting a dog, about just plain living our damn lives! I won't do it anymore. I'm not a judgemental person. I'm really, really not. I'll give anyone the benefit of the doubt and I like to assume that other's will afford me the same respect, but I can see now that they won't. So F*** you.
I will not let their judgement effect me anymore!
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